breaking the hush

The beginning of ‘Breaking the hush’ for me, had to start with one man. Not this website or ministry, but actually breaking the hush in my own life. I was 20 and a senior in college when introduced to Pastor John through a mutual friend. The meeting was set up by my friend Nelz as a birthday present. It’s a long story and will be included in the book, but basically it was the sovereignty of God that put it all in order. Pastor John started meeting with me on a...

They say that the one person that influences you the most in life is your father. I can remember my earliest memories of my dad. I was about 3 years old and I remember crying because both my sisters got to leave for school in the mornings but I had to stay home. I remember dad turning on the TV and us sitting down to watch Scooby-Doo. This made it all better. Granted, I don’t know how long my dad lasted, never being an avid cartoon watcher, but it was long enough to ease ...

One day last week took me to a dark place—a place I don’t believe I have been to or if I have, it has been a very long while. In my last blog I wrote how the decision on my appeal would be coming up soon and I was slightly downcast because of what I felt in my Spirit—a loss.

Well, last week, all of that was confirmed. Even with the preparation from the Spirit and encouragement from Erick and my family, I allowed the enemy to whispe...

You know, every once in a while I tend to struggle with God’s plans versus my plans. I have an appeal date coming up and in seeking God about it, I really feel that I already know the outcome and in that, the Lord is preparing me for the ‘bad’ news. I’ve mentioned before about trusting God 100% in a blog and how this experience in my life has brought me to that point and continues to challenge my faith. I guess that during this struggle, I wore my feelin...

To be honest, I’ve waited a little while to write this blog because I really do want the purpose of this site to be what it says on the mission statement page, and not to bash or discredit any person or institution. For this reason, I have waited to ensure my motives not to be selfish.

As most of you reading this know, taboos are kind of my pet peeve-especially in the church. This definitely comes from my own personal struggle with homosexuali...

Dutch Sheets wrote a little book called, “God’s Timing for Your Life.” In it, he describes the two different New Testament words for time. The Greek word ‘chronos’ refers to the general process of time, or chronological time. ‘Kairos’ refers to the right time, the opportune time or strategic time, the now time. Sheets states, ‘Kairos in many ways is an extension or continuation of chronos. As the process of God’s plan unfold...

For some reason, the Lord always puts people in my life who tend to see Him as black and white.  Usually analytical thinkers who lean, if not dwell on, the cynical and critical side. Well, on the other hand, I like to pitch my tent on the “there’s good in everyone” side! I’m not a very analytical thinker and really take things at face value. I do understand that there is a balance between the two and do my best to walk that line! However, when it co...

In a previous blog, I wrote about giving thanks in all situations – I Thessalonians 5:16.  Well, just yesterday I was tested! It was Sunday and Sundays are probably my busiest days here at the Gurney Unit. I’m a church worker involved in worship and volunteer with the baptismal services. In prison, we don’t do anything without being allowed or told to do it first. I’ve always tended to be submissive to authority due to my fear of rejection, so it is...

**To a man that has impacted me in the past few years as much as I him. Thank you for showing me that God still has a purpose in my life and allowing a broken and repentant man to pour into yours, finding healing and forgiveness! To a man that has been called and chosen and entrusted with advancing the kingdom of God! Justin, I love you and wish you the best birthday so far and many more to come! **

**To my ‘BEST ROOMMATE EVER’! A man who didn't make excuses but opportunities. Seek God in continuing to find that balance! I love you and miss you!

Welcome to 30, Raymond Brett Mizelle!**