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My Heart is Filled
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Since leaving my last unit and moving to stiles, it has been miserable, but tolerable. I have questioned my decision to leave Dalhart and some days it has been very hard to cope; all the crazy negative differences and the process of letting go. Every day, I have never neglected to seek God or read His Word, and every day was quiet�?�until this week. I�??ve been so desperate and hungry to hear from God�??to know that I still have a purpose and that I�??ve not been totally forgotten! It�??s very much a struggle when you feel that your relationship with the Lord is one sided. But, every day I would tell Him that I KNEW He was Good and faithful even if I didn�??t see it. Honestly, some days I was trying to even convince myself. In all my whining and pleading, I would ask God to show His sovereignty�??to let me know that He was listening and to restore some ounce of hope that I once had. Well, I am writing this today to tell you that God is good and faithful and he showed me this week how BIG He really is in such a small, but �??there-is-a-God-and-He-is-listening�?� way!
Sometime during the beginning of this past week, I wasn�??t praying but was thinking how nice it would be to read a Donald Miller book again (one of my favorite authors) and in the same train of thought, I began thinking of someone I knew in college. We traveled in the same circles but were never really close. In fact, we may have only had a total of two conversations that I can remember. Then comes Friday and I receive a package in the mail containing two books, one being one of my favorite Donald Miller�??s and another titled, �??Anonymous�?? by Alicia Chole. Immediately I recognized the name. I first met and heard Alicia and her husband speak in my small childhood church over 20 years ago and was blessed to hear her several times since. Inside the book was a small paper with a note�?�
�??Hi Shawn! I just wanted to send you some encouragement and tell you that you aren�??t forgotten! This book is by a super genuine, authentic mentor of mine-wanted to share it with you. Hope this week is filled with hope and peace! �??
(Then referring to the Donald Miller book)
�??This came to mind today. It had emotional impact for me when I read it long ago on a trip to Maui. My theme that week was �??paradise starts in the heart�?? because I was miserable but in a supposedly perfect place. Hoping your heart is filled.�??
And then signed by the same college friend I was thinking about just a few days prior! Only God!
Breaking the Hush,
Shawn
***To Shannon�??Thank you for walking in the Spirit and being sensitive to the still, small voice. You had no idea where I�??ve been spiritually, yet, this simple act has activated something in my spirit that has been void for a very long time! I pray that you are blessed a hundred fold, that God fulfills your deepest longing for Him and all He has promised you! I have begun to read �??Anonymous�?? and know that Alicia didn�??t have a guy in my situation in mind while writing it, but I have been encouraged knowing that my hibernating bear of potential will be awakened by Spring again! Also, that even THIS course that I�??m in, is a Main! (I still remember her �??sham-mule-poo�?? story!) This book is PERFECT for my current season-another way God is showing me how good He is! This gift could not have come at a better time! You will no longer be known by me as just a college friend, but a sister and woman of God who is advancing the Kingdom on earth one God moment at a time. When thinking of you, your family, and ministry will no longer me a random act but a purposeful choice as I bring your name to the throne room of God in prayer! Thank you forever!***
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