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I was reading the other day in Romans and something stuck out to me – Chapter 5 verse 20b says, “Where sin increased, God’s grace increased much more.” There is never so much sin that there is not enough of God’s grace to cover it. In fact, I feel those of us that have lived in sin, and were slaves to it for so long, understand it that much more when we become free by God’s grace and mercy. Not that you don’t understand, if you were born and raised in church, were saved at age 7. But it’s the fact, knowing that you were heading in such a wrong direction that you could almost finish telling the story of your life without Christ. When you’re that close to eternal separation from Him, you tend to maybe appreciate His deliverance that much more! “Where sin increased, God’s grace increased that much more.” Tomorrow will be twelve years that God filled my heart with hope and because of my desire for more, put His hands on my chest and filled me with the Holy Spirit. Since that day, He has never stopped his jaw-dropping love for me! Over the past twelve years, I have seen where I could/would be without Him and how much mercy He has shown for me to be where I am today! It was twelve years ago that I told Him that my life was His to do with as He wanted, and seeing where I am today, I would still never change my decision. Would I still be in jail? Maybe not. Would I be free, living a lie? Definitely! So, tomorrow, on my spiritual birthday, away from my friends and family, in my prayer closet (lying on my bunk, under my sheets) I will remember that day, 12 years ago, when my doubts, fears, and hopelessness became love, hope, and peace!
Thank you Dr. Jones, for listening to the prompting of the Holy Spirit even though it seemed like such an odd message for a Christian University. And thank you to all those who allowed me to interrupt your study groups, prayer sessions, and game nights as I banged on doors, and ran down halls telling of what the Spirit had done for me that evening!
Most importantly, I thank You God, for being so real to me that day and where my heart was so full of sin, Your grace increased so much more!
*To the man who never ceased to astound me with his love for others, as well as S’more pop tarts, and to the man who inspired me with profound wisdom as well as comic relief. Have a wonderful birthday Gabe and Daniel! I love you!*
Breaking the Hush,
Shawn
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daniel says...
Were you referring to me when you said "profound wisdom"? If so, wow! What a compliment. If not, sorry and oh well. Dude, it's been FOREVER and there's definitely no way to catch up via comment on this thing... I know you Shawn. I talk of you every time I tell the story of how I became ready to meet the woman who is now my wife. You are anointed, there is no question. It's been neat reading your blogs... it's like getting to read your mind in a way. I admire your extreme honesty, and I can see your courage as well. You were so right in the blog where you'd mentioned people walking the streets, yet not free. Few people get to see it like the way you do.
Shawn, If we were face to face, I'd say to you: you are still a good man in my eyes, and you carry a heavy anointing. I am very thankful that God rescued your inner person from ever reaching the point where things progressed to a point where there was actually physical contact. Boy, is God good!!! Thats right, HE IS so sweetly precious! I say it again, i'm SO thankful it never progressed to such a point. I am believing with you for intervention of some sort, hoping that you will find favor with man, as you have found such indescribable favor with God.
Did you know my first name means "God is gracious" and that my middle name means "God is my judge"? I think that's enough said my friend. That's why I love my name so much. I am so "lightened" in knowing that He alone is in control, and He can and WILL do whatever He pleases, whenever He pleases. We are simply His. You are simply His. He paid an immesurable price for you, so much that He has answered your prayer by doing whatever is necessary to keep you "seeking that kiss" you blogged about. That was a very serene picture... I imagined myself kissing the cheek of Jesus too. Everything surrounding was simply a soft white, and all that mattered was His warm face. Wow, His love!!!
I also love how you boldly told people not to pity you! Talk about owning your circumstance, right?! I can say I don't, haven't, and won't. I have mourned over the situation, but that can only last a time. I now just look forward to what awaits you, and let me be clear, not in regards to the outcome of this situation, but on a moment by moment, day to day basis.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor. 16-18
Love you Man,
Daniel
Shawn, If we were face to face, I'd say to you: you are still a good man in my eyes, and you carry a heavy anointing. I am very thankful that God rescued your inner person from ever reaching the point where things progressed to a point where there was actually physical contact. Boy, is God good!!! Thats right, HE IS so sweetly precious! I say it again, i'm SO thankful it never progressed to such a point. I am believing with you for intervention of some sort, hoping that you will find favor with man, as you have found such indescribable favor with God.
Did you know my first name means "God is gracious" and that my middle name means "God is my judge"? I think that's enough said my friend. That's why I love my name so much. I am so "lightened" in knowing that He alone is in control, and He can and WILL do whatever He pleases, whenever He pleases. We are simply His. You are simply His. He paid an immesurable price for you, so much that He has answered your prayer by doing whatever is necessary to keep you "seeking that kiss" you blogged about. That was a very serene picture... I imagined myself kissing the cheek of Jesus too. Everything surrounding was simply a soft white, and all that mattered was His warm face. Wow, His love!!!
I also love how you boldly told people not to pity you! Talk about owning your circumstance, right?! I can say I don't, haven't, and won't. I have mourned over the situation, but that can only last a time. I now just look forward to what awaits you, and let me be clear, not in regards to the outcome of this situation, but on a moment by moment, day to day basis.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor. 16-18
Love you Man,
Daniel
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