breaking the hush

This past week I have been feeling really “Blah” and a little overwhelmed with my circumstances and incredibly tired of jail. The same everything for over 6 months-room, people, food, routine! I needed something different, something to keep me growing. Chapel service in this county jail is all done through a satellite room located in our tank. Basically, the chaplain holds a service downstairs for the ladies or trustees and it is fed live to that room though a monitor. I went today and the Lord did something special. Stephanie, the senior chaplain and the one I know is filled with the Spirit; spoke on God’s Word and how perfect it is. She said that it does not change and will not return void (Isaiah 55:10-11), how He is a shield for those who seek His protection (Psalm 18:30 & II Sam. 22:31), and then she said something that I needed to hear – “God is not overwhelmed by His plan for you and He is beyond time.” Did I know all of this? Yes! Did I need to hear them, bury them in my heart and wrap my spirit around them specifically today? Definitely! She then played a worship video of something like Hillsong or CFNI and they sang a song titled, “You Are Worthy of Affection.” I began to cry because it was as if for those few moments, the Lord gave me a reprieve from jail and allowed me to step into the worship service; a small thing that we as church-going Christians may take for granted on a weekly basis. Thank you God, for showing your goodness to me and letting me know that you care about our smallest needs, and know what it takes to meet them. I thank you God, for you are worthy of all my affection! Faithful are you Lord!